project frankie

pinching and punching

Artist – http://brianmviveros.com/

So it’s the first day of a new month (pinch and a punch dudes!)  and exactly halfway through 2012.

I’ve not blogged for AGES so I thought I’d do a mid-year update as to where I’m at.

2012 was always going to be the year I get my health back.  It’s half way through and am I half way there?  Kinda.  There’s been a learning curve that has taken up a LOT of this year already but now that I’ve spent several months on trial and error, I think the pace is gonna pick up for the rest of the year.

I’m not talking about superficial shit like the size of my arse, it’s about pain.  The pain that keeps me from living my unlived life.  And, the depression/anxiety that comes with that pain. It still controls me.  I cancel appointments/events because I am afraid it will be too hard.  I don’t see friends….I’ve successfully isolated myself to the point that I only ever see people from work.  But I think I’m coming out of it.

My gorgeous chiro (a fifth year student at the university I work at) has done wonders for me (although I’m sure she gets frustrated with my lack of adherence to my rehab exercises – my bad).  She really does care about my health and well being.  So much so, that she recently applied for me to pay a special rate..only $12 a session (which includes manipulation and soft tissues work) TWELVE FRIKKIN DOLLARS!  She said the she never wanted me to put my health second and put off an appointment or not come in because I didn’t have the money.  I LUVS HER.

Anyway…

My neck has been slowly improving over the last few months and we’re now concentrating on my core and shoulder.  Spanner in the works is always my ribs (costochondritis) which, if I throw them out, fucks EVERYTHING else.  Like an idiot, I tried some push ups the other week and I’m still feeling the pain, deep in my right side.  Fuckity fuck fuck.

But, luckily I realised I was due for long service leave so I’m currently 1 week into 4 weeks off work.  The first week was a lot of fucking around, getting some paperwork done, buying a couple of things and sorting the kids out.  I also started back on my grain/gluten/sugar free diet (yeah I’d gone off the rails for a while) and I’m feeling so much better for it.

Going to use the rest of my time off to set up some good habits and get my fatigue/pain levels at such where I can work a day and not come home needing pain killers.  That’s all…not much.  Lots of resistance band rehab and good eating should do it.  I hope :-/

I’ve got lots of WAY more fun stuff to write about but I’ll post later in the week about that

2012 Part 2….I’m ready!